Moments of weakness.

I want so badly to just be this happy person. The person that everyone admires for always having a smile on their face. The person everyone wants to be around because they are pleasant company. I like to think that I enjoy life. Actually, i can honestly say that i do. But i do something that a large portion of people in this world do… I over think EVERYTHING. I can’t complain too much, after all, I did do this to my self. I chose to grow up too fast. And now I have to over whelm my self with thoughts that I shouldn’t have at 18. What happened to just being young and dumb. Why can’t i be okay with that? The people in my life that I want to and should be able to lean on when I’m between a rock and a hard place are the people who  want nothing to do with people in an emotional state. Sorry, i’m just venting now…. I guess what i’m just trying to get at is this; There is no such thing as being happy all the time. Nothing would be appreciated if we didn’t already know what it was like to lose something we cherish. And being successful isn’t a measure of money and materials. It is a measure of happiness and pride.

Lets talk about Love.

Lets be honest with our selves. Everyone at some point in their lives wants to fall hopelessly in love with someone. I used to think love was something I just wasn’t interested in. All i wanted was my dreams, and my plans to get there. But now I am realizing that all the success in the world, the money, the houses, the exciting places and adventures would be so meaningless with out someone you truly love being around, there with you through it all. Love is something people roll there eyes at when they hear people talk about it. Why? Because maybe they had their heart broken, or they just view love differently. No one person views love the same as the next. And why am I going on and on about love? Because honestly, it changed my life. Sometimes, you love someone so much that its almost painful. Sometimes I wonder if heartbreak would be Less painful than the love its self. I see so many people daily just fake that they love the person they are with. I can never understand why they would, but they would rather be miserable with someone that be alone. I can honestly say that I don’t believe one has to experience heartbreak in order to recognize true love. Because I managed to get it right the first time. ♥

Ralph Waldo Emerson

I just HAD to make a page about my personal hero’s! And number one on my list is the one person who I admire for thinking the way he did first, Mr. Emerson. There is no one in this world i turn to before Emerson when I need a little inspiration or reasoning behind anything I do in my life.

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”


If there is one thing everyone in this world wants, it’s the easy way. The easiest way to cook a meal, the easiest way to find a job, the easiest way to get rich, the easiest way to find a soul mate. But sadly, we beg for the easy ways, and when we take those short cuts we complain about our not so satisfactory results. Let me break this obvious news to you… Beggars CAN’T BE CHOOSERS! Hard work is worth the stress and strain because when we finally get what we are after, it is such an amazing feeling. So bitter-sweet. It’s a taste we can all appreciate. When leaving for work, what is the one thing every single person does? We all glance at the clock more than necessary and look for the short cuts so we won’t be late. This is a proper use of short cuts. It is beneficial. Saves us time, gas, money, and humiliation of getting yelled at for being late. But to try to apply such a mediocre form of ease on something as valuable as your goals and dreams is just ignorant. Though I may be guilty of wishing things were easier for my dreams sometimes, but I will take the time-consuming, hard-working process with the delicious taste of success in the end over the short cut that leaves me with an empty plate any day. It is so simple. Just take 2 minutes of your day, sit down, close your eyes, and just breathe and think about what reasons you have to be happy and question the things you stress about. Stop getting mad about all the tiny details in life. Stop assuming that every time you run into an obstacle that someone is out to get you or you aren’t meant to be doing what you want to do. If you want to do it, you are meant to. And you can, and you will.